♥ posted October 29, 2008, 6:30 am

Envy—

An emotion that “occurs when a person lacks another’s superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it.

A total surprise when the kiss and message arrived. Faint recollection of seeing a kiss from you before, did I return it? I forget, but sorry for not reciprocating it then if I didn’t. For the pictures you have don’t represent you very well, you’re much, much better in person. So much that I was thrown off and didn’t for a minute even think that you possibly could ever be interested…

That is if you are. The reluctance and absence of returned messages even though you’re the one who initiated, which leads me to start thinking, maybe I’m not replying with enough wit, or maybe I’m just boring. The presence of a much hotter, sought after character that is after you throws me off a bit; why don’t you want him?

So many questions makes me have doubt. I guess when I’m afraid to lose something, I over think, over plan and over do everything. The what ifs start arriving.

I won’t deny I’m anticipating what is about to happen, though. That is, if it does— would you reply to my last text message already?